Starting back where we left off…

I guess that this title is quite apt really as me writing this blog may well be a VERY sound metaphor for life, a strange comparison I know, but just hear me out on this one as in some respects I’m TOTALLY going with the flow and truly just writing what comes to my mind. Like I said, with me the writer and you the listener I am aspiring to create some type of continuity in my sharing of thought and mind. This sharing of course has a desired outcome, albeit I do not know it in its totality. However; yet again that may be much said for life and here is to say why. Like I have said before, it is my intention to impart with you an understanding, within you, that you are not alone, in fact there are Billions of us human like creatures upon this planet that all question themselves, their beliefs, who they are and what they represent, not only to themselves but also to their creator and to others upon this planet. Well the thing is, I have been there, trust ME, I HAVE BEEN THERE! I have been to the dark depths of the mind, filled with its toxic confusion and distresses, I have absolutely given up hope and lost all belief in life itself. I remember the days looking out of the sliding doors in my parents living room, looking at the rain soaked sky and garden and just crying with despair and distress. As it was raining without, it was also raining within and it did not stop, for a VERY long time. Once again, I may say, trust me, I most CERTAINLY have my reasons to cry, I have my losses, my losses of self, ie, me, who I was, my spirit and my energy to a degree, and yet I had also lost the closest thing that I could have ever had in my life. I often say that I will tell you things in the future and do you know what? once again I was about to say exactly the same thing but, I owe you more than that, I owe you the truth about where I have been, why and how I have come out of it. This is not a story where I look for pity, nor the admiration of bravery because at some point we ALL get given our own personal trials that will test us to our core, that will test our faith. And I guess, in some ways that is really is the heart of the matter, having faith. Like I have also mentioned before also, I am not talking about having faith in a pseudo, made up God that is sitting upon the “imaginary” thrown in the lofts of heaven, no, that is not what I mean. But I mean having faith in the fact that you are a child of the mighty universe and that you will ONLY get given a little more than you can handle so that  it WILL test your faith and intentionally, so that you can prove your resolve and worthiness and it is only that faith where you get to BELIEVE, ABSOLUTELY, that things will be OK and “come good” in the end. Yes, we get given shit stuff do deal with and yes we may say that it’s not fair but hey, let’s just deal with it. I don’t know if any of you people have ever been rock climbing but for the few of you that you have you may get this little analogy. There comes a point when you are climbing a wall or a face when your arms become dead and the muscles as weak as a child’s and there is nowhere to go. More often than not this will happen on an open face with no cropping for you to take a rest so your kinda only left with one option and that is to get a good foot hold and hug in tight to the wall. You have to hug in tight because otherwise your arms will consume vital glucose and weaken, you are putting no pressure upon your arms at all to save what little strength they have left! In fact, your cheek is firmly pressed up against the face so that you can get in as tight as possible you are literally jut hanging in there. Well, do you know what, sometimes life is like that! Sometimes we get given so much shit that we are too tired and too drained to carry on climbing, too disorientated to look for the next foothold or hand hold and rest assured there is no F’in ledge or out cropping to rest on anywhere to be seen! So in effect, you are just hanging in there and do you also know what, that is where your faith comes in. Faith not to look down otherwise it will freak you out, faith to not try to make a move as you are just so tired you know that you can’t make it as you will fall and in fact faith to not even consider the final destination as it LITERALLY seems like a mountain climb away. So what do we do, we hang in there and have faith that we will recover, we will gather our strength and our faculties will recoup. We have faith that our destiny has been assured, which really is an interesting topic, as I do truly believe that our destiny is already written and we shall once again ABSOLUTELY reunite with our creating source, but alas, you knew that it was coming, we’ll save that one for another time. Hanging in there though, like I said, trust me, I have been there. On the 4th of November 1999 I came home, to my parents house, to see one of my brothers waiting down the end of the road for me to make sure that I didn’t make it home just yet. The news that he had for me was about to smash my “known world” to pieces. It turns out that earlier on that day my twin brother had committed suicide by hanging himself. It’ll be a difficult for anyone to imagine so in fairness to you, I’m not even going to ask you to try and imagine what it feels like or what DEVASTATION it brought to me and the rest of my family, it was like an atom bomb! Like I said, the point here is not for me to get your sympathy or admiration, life just is, it’s fucked up! and we have NO WAY of knowing what the FUCK is going to happen next, unless, we persevere and learn for long enough about cause and effect and how we get to create our own future existence. This really is though about some of those times that we just need to hang in there, have a little faith and BELIEVE that things are going to be OK. So where do we “start as we left off” as the title of this little post may suggest? Well; one of the craziest things that I have EVER experienced in this life so far, is a sporadic, uncontrollable mind. It’s like giving a 4 year old child, LOADS of sweets laden with sugar,colourings and preservatives and then giving them SHIT LOADS of amphetamines at the same time, it is FUCKING CRAZY! You don’t know where you are going, or WHAT you are doing, there is ABSOLUTELY no clue what so EVER! No concept of following any particular order at all, well once again that is a time to have faith and in fact, that then is a BEAUTIFUL time to set a goal. Set a goal that one day all things will be OK. And do you know what, that is it, that is all you need to do. For all of the distress and confusion that is going on, that is all you need to come back to, “one day, all will be OK” That’s it! Nothing else! It’s kinda like hanging in on that rock face with nowhere to go and that you have no energy to move neither your arms or legs. You can’t look down because the fall is too much, it’ll kill you, and there is no point in looking up either because you are too tired to even move, let alone get there so what do you do? STOP, allow the mind to settle, the body to gather its vital force, and just have faith. All will be OK, just hang in there, hug tight and slow your breathing to a calm, relaxed, composed manner so that you can take it all in and slowly, as time passes, you will have the energy to move forwards, your mind WILL become clear, foot holds and hand holds will present themselves without you even having to look for them, they will just be there. In fact I believe there there is a Christian story called “FOOTPRINTS” that sums everything up rather well actually and it really is quite a LOVELY story, you should read it. So what does this gathering of ourselves allow us to do? Well, within the midst of confusion can be a moment of PURE clarity, kinda like the eye of the storm I guess, and what this gathering does it allows us to regroup and to regain our clarity and to move on, move on that little bit wiser and that little bit stronger and hey, who knows, perhaps we are then able to help others when they face a similar situation or when they run out of energy and will, upon that bare, lonely mountain face that is called the individual’s mind because do you know what, if I have been there and you have been there, then they have too, we either all have or we all will, at some point, and what EVERYONE needs is an experienced guide to say “hey, it’s OK, all will be fine. Just have a little faith, regroup, gather yourself, and allow your energy to come back and wait for the next step or hand hold to appear” There is no need to show false bravery or to pretend or to be stupid because sometimes it really is a matter of just saying, “OK, I got this” and then starting back where we left off, to continue with the journey, the journey of a LIFETIME!

You have my hand, you are NOT alone….

Looking in the right place first..

The funny thing is, this will seem pretty damned obvious when think about, oh the irony of such a phrase…

I guess that some of the core, fundamental questions that human beings have asked, of time immemorial, are things like, who are we, what am I supposed to do and why do I do what I do. Well, of course I can go a lot deeper in to this subject and philosophise my own theories about past lives, unification of spirit and a cleaning of karmic energy through ANOTHER incarnation here on Earth, well, I think, that that will be a little too much for the people that aren’t listening to swallow so let’s just give the simple, cut to the chase answer without any spiritual alignment involved, let’s just say things are they are. You, and I, so we, are as we are, where we are and why we are as we are because of our minds. Yep’ our thoughts have created everything! We experience what we experience because of our thoughts, now I’m not going to get in to the law of attraction here as that in itself is a MASSIVE writing and it is not one for now and partly the reason why it is not for is I am not in the mood….Not in the mood you say, well why the hell not, if you have taken your valuable time and energy to read what I write, am I being rude, ignorant or dismissive? Well actually no I’m not, and my reasoning behind my not in the mood is because my energy is low, I am tired, nay, almost drained! And why is that? because of the choices that I have made over the last few days that takes me to this point of today. For this reason alone I think that it is fair to talk about our choices and our mindset and the disruption of that mindset by the decisions that we make. Do our choices benefit our desired path or do they hinder us and set us back? That in itself is a VERY good question to ask ones self, as often as possible because perhaps only by bringing our decision making in to a conscious reality and to question the why’s of why we think such things can we really make true progress in life. A good example of this, all be it an extreme version, would be; so if you NEVER, EVER questioned why you think in certain patterns or ways, in fact you never even questioned why you do certain things, which sadly, many are actually like, so if this were the case then what kind of person would you be? I say that you wouldn’t be any kind of person at all, you would be more robot like, in fact you would have no opportunity for growth, for understanding or even learning, you would question NOTHING, you would just do. Perhaps this sounds great and people may even say that it is enlightened, but yet how could it be? We were not born enlightened and we certainly never grew up enlightened either so in that case we would neither grow, nor understand, we would actually regress! Do you not possibly think that that is why children ask the question why so often? Perhaps it is because they want to know, and to know; to know is to grow. So my point for today is merely to ask you this question, do you know yourself? This is a BIG question and will be a VERY big question to many and in fact I do believe in a very popular book that is taken too literally by too many, the one that is called the Bible, it even says in there as one of the main points of focus, “KNOW THY SELF!” Of course, you have many, MANY aspects to yourself and possibly even too many for you to START upon so let’s keep this simple and bring it back to the beginning, your thoughts and your actions, are they in line with what you REALLY want out of life or are you being robotic about how you think, what you think and why you think what you do. I guess that if we want to start to influence change, which is inevitable then we need to look at the beginning and that beginning is our thoughts. This weekend I made decisions and choices that have weakened me, physically, mentally and emotionally, they were not in line with my life, although perhaps now, at this moment they are but soon enough, there will be no place for it, so should I be sad or upset that things will change? No, of course not, because I choose change for the BETTER! Change in inevitable, it is DESTINED to happen so a good start is to start aligning our thoughts, mind, and actions toward the direction that we want to head and in fact, right now I’m not even suggesting that you pick an ideal or a goal as first we need to grasp the fundamentals, and what are those fundamentals once again?  They are that you are your thoughts of yesterday, last month, last year and last forever! You think how you do now because of the thoughts that you had to past events and experience which would have influenced your perception which had already been influenced by past interpretation of past events. Do you understand what has happened to us? There has been layer upon layer of thought that has influenced our TRUE and OBJECTIVE perception of experience to give us ANOTHER adulterated and misguided thought process and there fore, more than likely, ANOTHER misunderstanding as to what this experience could be. Now I don’t necessarily suggest that we all start going to hypnotherapy to find out at what point we started to think in certain, hindering ways, no, that would take too long and you may well get caught within the quagmire that is mind itself. Athough, it does have to be noted that Hypnotherapy is  a VERY valuable tool and indeed has been and still will be VERY useful, for A LOT of people, and I too have had many a session and indeed it is FULLY advocated. But NO, I suggest this instead, accept this instead; accept that the past has shaped you but yet now you get to shape the future. Your thought patterns have been formed without you knowing so perhaps not is the time for you to take your mind back, take ownership of your captain and guide him so that he can then guide you in your own direction! Your mind has been subliminally influenced but I’m saying that you can bypass blame by accepting that from here on in, you are conscious, you are not only conscious but you are also conscientous about that consciousness. You own yourself, you own your most powerful tool so let’s us, before we do ANYTHING, get to know that tool and then we can use it properly, after all, it is our mind that has shaped our body, by the food that we eat and by the exercise that we either did or did not do. It is also our mind that has shaped our emotions and subsequent reactions to certain events, this is TRULY the case especially when we consider the fact that feelings come from thoughts and emotions from feelings, in fact shall I tell you what are emotions are defined as from the dictionary? They are describe as very very strong feelings…Yep’ that is true so all of our emotion have come down to the fact that we think, or have thought in a certain way once upon a time. And what are thought derived from? interpretation of data! And that data, in us humans predominantly, or at least that we are aware of, comes to us via our five senses. So what ever we have heard, felt, smelt, touched or tasted has left its mark upon us and our conscious has then relayed that back to the subconscious, when then stores that for future reference. A simple example of this is this. Child likes dogs, child gets bitten by dog, child dislikes dogs. Child grows up, to be an adult, whenever “adult” hears dogs bark it brings back instant fear about getting bitten. The adult isn’t going to get bitten of course because the dog is living 4 doors away and the fences are 9ft high but yet they still have the fear. That is what is happening, day in and day out with our selves we are rerunning the recorded record of yesterdays so again, let’s start at the beginning. Be kind to your mind, look at her and see that she has more than likely been abused, in fact she was, she is delicate and has not been treated so, she has been influenced, poked and prodded without her knowing and do you know what? rarely, RARELY and if EVER do people do it on purpose, of course they don’t! No, they just think shit and act shit because they too have been abused, confused and distressed and can not think straight. But do you know what also? You can think straight and you will be right, you will take better action that yields better results because you have better thoughts and that, is GOING to be the case! So, let’s be kind to the mind, the start of it all…

My friend’s mother once said to me;

The mind can make a heaven out of hell and a hell out of heaven!


You will retrain you and then you can build the new YOU!


My peace is with you….

Why is the why?

So first of all let me explain as to why I referred to myself as a whisper. It’s not because I say things quietly and it’s not because I’m not prepared to voice my opinion or are timid, in fact quite the contrary, it really is quite simple and straight forward to be honest and rather logical in fact. I called myself the whisperer because I know that nobody is listening, so in actuality it doesn’t matter how loud I speak, or no matter how much I shout, it will still only be a whisper compared to the hustle and bustle of all other noise that is being sounded. There are a couple of other reasons too, one would be the fact that secrets are a whisper, and I believe that there is a secret unfolding through many, and through me, so a whisper it shall be. Another reason might be due to the fact that there is a revolution happening, a revolution of humanity. No, I’m not talking guns and warfare, even though a plotted and organised world coup is in stage but no, we can’t fight guns with guns and fists, we just simply won’t win. There are powers that are willing to gun people down for the price of order and control and hopefully, in the future and within my posts, I may be able to reveal how democracy (as we are sold it and are to know it) has never actually existed. In fact, it is a subversive element of control that tricks people in to thinking that they have free will, but let’s not forget, that “element of free will” so to speak is born from and is based out of fear, so in effect that is not free will at all and in fact, once again, can NEVER be free will in the slightest! Of course there are many elements of this fear based system and from law and order administered by police, to border protection, to the courts and eventually to prison. One of these elements of control, which is very close to my heart, as shall the reasons for be revealed in due course, is organised and institutionalised religion. I mean, if there is a GOD, jury has to be out, let’s be objective here, I am not trying to sell or impose anything, I may not be right! And indeed I am not such a hypocrite to say that I am, I believe what I believe due to experience, by tested understanding and analysing the feelings that I get from such beliefs, after all, we are feeling beings, not just thinking bodies. In some respects we are to be experiencing more through our physical and ethereal bodies as opposed to just what goes on in our heads. But anyway, can GOD be categorised? can “it” (I have to say “it” because it can not be defined by one pure gender because in reality it MUST be both, if it is everything then it is both the Yin and the Yang, so essentially it is all, just with varying oscillations of degree, which will be an interesting future subject once again…) Sorry for all these “future” subjects by the way, but there is no way that I can write my mind all in one go, you would get a tired head and I too would have to sleep, but let’s see what we can do. So religion and it’s element of control…Interesting one! So they basically say that if you don’t follow the church then you won’t get in to heaven, WOW man, that’s pretty heavy! Especially considering that eternity is FOREVER! Are you serious, what a JOKE! But where is heaven and who actually decided this? Was it a governing body of controllers that want to have a bunch of loyal subjects under their control that had so much fear instilled in to them that if they didn’t live by “their” rules then they would be eternally locked out of the kingdom of heaven? I think that perhaps it was…. Of course this is a HUGE subject and I could AND WILL write about it for hours, but not now, let’s get back to the original point here which is the whispering revolution. I say the whispering revolution for not only are we the whisperer but we are also searching to hear the whisper too and if you read this, then you are already hearing some of its essence. OK, so we understand about the whisper but what is the revolution that I talk about and a revolution without guns, anger, apathy and even allowing ones self to roll on the floor and get kicked in the nuts? Well, the revolution is within, it is the alchemy of change, change for the BETTER. MEASURED, DIRECTED and CONSCIOUSLY INFLUENCED change! Change is one of my favourite things, in fact I am in love with it, it is beautiful, magnificent and majestic. In fact, it is one of only two CONSTANT things within the whole UNIVERSE! And it is happening all of the time, every time, without fail and without cease! Whilst reading this for example for body has completed millions of chemical reactions and produced thousands of new cells whilst some have perished. Your blood PH has varied hundreds of times and your heart has beat dozens of times also. Your O2 and Co2 composition has complete altered too, you are totally and ABSOLUTELY different! And so is your world, what happens within also happens without…Now we have one of two options, these would be to embrace change or to fear it, and all i say is why fear it, it’s gonna happen anyway, just go with it, you CAN”T fight it so at the very LEAST just accept it, it is INEVITABLE! (inevitable is one of my favourite words by the way, it holds so much power). So change and revolution, how do these two things fit together? Before, we were unconscious, then we woke up, we didn’t really understand our consciousness but now we really know that change is within our own hands, we get to influence change, we are the change that is GOING to happen! Imagine that! We have a say, in FACT we are the architects of our own change and our own CEO, we are our own project manager, we are our own quantity surveyor, we are our own craftsman and we are our own tradesman, and also we are the owner that gets to decide whether to sell, or keep, to modify or to remodel, hell if we don’t like it then we get to tear it down and start a new build all from scratch! I have just had a thought come in to my mind, as I often do when I am calm and focused, as opposed to my etherial mental drifting that my uncontrolled puppy mind likes to do from many a time to time. And that thought was one that in the bible doesn’t it say that the walls of Solomon’s temple have to come crashing down for it then to be rebuilt? Well, that is EXACTLY what you, nay in fact WE are doing. We are allowing, if not consciously ordering, the walls of the old temple or our mind, which has built without our say so by the way, through control, overt and subversive, through MANY, MANY factions and deliveries of slight, so that we can rebuild it, just how we want it to be. And how we want it will not be driven out of fear, bias or a desire for control it will be built out of a desire for harmony, out of one for respect, courtesy, honor and appreciation for the ALL that IS and ALL that WILL BE! Actually we are not going to be meek at all, we are going to say to our creator, if there is one, let’s not forget, “Look, I made this”  “I made this for me to live and you to appreciate”  What do you think, do you like it?” But yet, do you know what? We don’t do it for honor or for glory or for the appreciation of a yes or a no, or a perhaps “if you do this, things might be better” for we ARE our own feedback, we do it because we CAN, or maybe even we SHOULD! But with a should I take away free choice, so actually we shouldn’t do ANYTHING, we are not talking fear base and obligation, should is merely an outmoded perspective that has no time nor place within this modern world, we can feel obliged to because we can, and besides, what else are we going to do with our time, grab a TINNIE and watch T.V? As I said in the last post, FUCK THAT!! OK, so we are talking about the rebuilding of the temple of OURSELVES to create a new majesty that is born from OUR ideals, OUR goals and OUR dreams, in fact if I am totally honest, which I ALWAYS endeavor to be, we are talking about rebuilding DIRECTLY in line with our relationship to our creator, if there is one….This rebuilding is not subjected to outside pressure nor influence, we SHALL NOT be subliminally subjected to society’s psychology and not that of or peers and family members. It is a matter of undoing the tangled web of psychological issues inherited from our parents (the concept of original sin by the way), re-framing our mind and also starting to acknowledge our emotions and how we interface with the world and other living creatures within it. It is looking at all aspects of our life and our being, what works and what doesn’t, what is joy and love based and what is based through fear and that element of control. Within this “Opportunity of refining” we leave no stone unturned, no corner within darkness and no aspect viewed without honesty and compassion at its core. We are going to look at ourselves from within to without instead of the traditional without to within, we will align with the revolution and it will be silent, it will be yours that NOBODY can take away from you, bullets will not be able to harm you for you will be infinite and ongoing, if you believe in reincarnation (you are a soul with a body not a body with a soul), which may or may NOT be true, although Jesus did rise from the dead, Buddha professed to its testament and actually ALL enlightened ones agreed upon this one premis, then you have for ALL eternity to refine yourself and to perfect yourself, there are no wrongs nor rights here, there is only unity and alignment, there is the way, the TAO of ALL things. It is called nature, which, as mentioned earlier is the other constant within the whole universe. EVERYTHING is nature, for nature is vibration! Where does nature (the schooled version of nature) start and finish? there are no boundaries, no rules, no limitations so I propose that perhaps we start to accept that nature really is vibration and EVERYTHING vibrates, EVERYthing is atomic in structure, smell, sound, colour, touch, all is NATURE! First things first then, let’s just relax, let us just accept, let’s give ourselves time and space, time to allow the process to happen for the more we yield the more in line with the TAO we become, and space? The space to do what we want and how we want to do it, the space to do things right but more importantly the space to make mistakes, walk with, be with and live with GRACE, you owe it to your delicate self. You have been abused, abused mentally, physically and emotionally over much time, it has rarely been your fault either and believe it or not, those that were doing the abusing knew no different either, it has all been hereditary, so can we blame them, should we be angry with them or feel hurt by them? No, it is not their fault either! But alas, we must accept, accept responsibility for who we are and what actions we take from here on in, are you conscious? yes you are, welcome to the club! The first step to forgiveness is understanding for without understanding there can be no forgiveness. So forgive yourself, for your mistakes of the past, the now and the ones that you will make in the future, you are learning and so are we. I say let’s learn together, let’s share our thoughts and understandings, let’s share the common truth, let us become the people that we shall become, let’s become our own Kings and Queens of OUR OWN kingdoms. The revolution has started, and it is a silent one!

Peace and Nature is within you, you are protected and coveted by it, it holds you within it’s womb, you are its baby!

Sometimes the whisperer is louder than the shouter.

I have decided to make this a quiet and graceful, almost elegant entrance in to the world of sharing what I know. In some respects my whole site, even though it is broken down in to the areas of mental, physical, emotional and spiritual, really does fall under the big umbrella that is called LIFE! Of course, I have no definite answer to what it really is, in fact I don’t even think that the Dalai Lama himself does, but even if he did, it really would be most suited to those that are living in the mountains of Tibet as opposed to us that are living here upon ground zero point. It really is my aim over the coming months, possibly years to give some insight in to myself, my life, my experiences and how I view this world, opportunity some may say, and how I am in the process of refining myself to be a better person. Of course there are many questions as to why I fundamentally choose this terminology in the first place, opportunity, process of refining? What opportunity, what REFINING are we talking about here, life just is isn’t it? We are a part of “evolution” after all, Darwin has us locked down, he NAILED it! we are now the Apex of ALL apex’s that could EVER be so well done guys and girls, I salute you, you, no in fact WE have made it! Let’s celebrate the hell out of it and get pissed, let’s do Cocoaine by the ounce and wreck ourselves, we’ve done it, We’ve F’in DONE IT!! Woohoo, the universe is complete in it’s majesty, with the most supreme being ever created getting right royally FUCKED and without a care for his and her well being, without giving a shit about it’s host and provider, that we call EARTH, the environment and all the other creatures that so RIGHTFULLY live on this rotating, majestic, water filled, rock that is hurtling through space at about 67,000 miles per hour with us. But again, just once more let me congratulate you, well done, you have made it so far, you have made it to this point, and believe it or not, it has not been easy, so relax, put your feet up, eat some really, REALLY terrible food that has been designed to get you addicted, fat and incapacitated just enough so that you slowly degenerate without having a clue of what you really are or where you have come from or what you are TRULY capable of, we are at the pinnacle of evolution and civilisation, we have wifi (that is just AWESOME by the way) we have such things as remote controls so you don’t even need to get up, cars so you have no need for exercise and access to absolutely everything that you could POSSIBLY want, delivered to your door, via the medium that we call the internet. So sit back, grab a Tinnie and let’s get fucked up, there is absolutely no more for us to learn, do, or evolve in to, you’ve done it, WELL DONE! So where does this OPPORTUNITY and PROCESS OF REFINING come in to it then? are we talking about a new level of consciousness here? Are we talking about a different type of awareness, one that my well have been stolen from us by our schooling, by society and by a well fashioned and systematic funneling of our “modern day” consciousness so that we have no clue of our true origins? How can we have ancient civilisations that have been more advanced, cultured and learned, are we, here today, not the most advanced that has ever been? What? NO, are you kidding me? but that is what you have been telling us, have you been lying to us? Have you been pulling the wool over our eyes and tricking us? Have you methodically made sure that we have no recollection of such a magnificent past? are you saying that our minds have been funneled in such a way that only what we see and hear is REALITY? OK, well in that case I must applaud you, you are the master of designers and engineers, in fact you are the master of deception, not us, we have just gone along with it, we are the ones that when you said “there is nothing to see here, just move along, why don’t you put your feet up and grab a Tinnie, we’ll handle this” we just said, yes, OK, I will let you handle EVERYTHING! Everything from what I do, to how much I earn, to the kind of character that I am, to the type of clothes that I wear, to the car that I drive, the house that I live in, my “life style”, hell, even the type of person that I think that I fall in love with! I do have to thank you though, you have made my life SOOO easy, I have to do very little, in fact, I hardly even have to THINK! Well sorry mate, actually I’m not buying it! I see how things are and I tell you what, it can be better, I can do things better, I can be happier, I can think REAL thoughts, I can see life for what it really is and see others for who they REALLY are, in fact I can find out who I REALLY am! So I tell you what, you can take your Xbox and your PS4, you can take your current schooling and economically driven world where ONLY profit will suffice at all costs and the eternal need for consumption of MORE, because I see things differently. “Perhaps” I see history and the present for that matter, for what it REALLY is, an opportunity an opportunity to refine the process of life, of living, of being human, of loving, of caring and of sharing of understanding and of getting to know the TRUTH! Life is an opportunity to undo all the hurt that has been done, heal the wounds that have been gouged in to my physical, spiritual and mental bodies, to slowly uncover and RE-discover who I really am, who we ALL really are. And do you know what, I’m going to tell people, in FACT I am going to tell EVERY ONE!


“Far better it is to dare mighty things and to win glorious triumphs, even though chequered with failure, than to take ranks with those poor souls who neither enjoy much, nor suffer much, because they live in the grey twilight that know not victory nor defeat!”

Teddy Roosevelt